i remember when you picked me up and twirled me around in the fiercest hug our friendship has felt.
it reminded me that i wouldn't be alone in this.
i wouldn't be found running and jumping without being caught.
as i sit in this new place, i realize that's what i feel.
the absence of those closest to me, vulnerable to not being caught.
running in the opposite direction of those that are near as i wait for those that have known me longer, those that know me the best.
(I wish this were easier!)
it's time to reach out and be vulnerable.
i can't sit and wait for things to happen without asking, without taking risks.