Monday, October 6, 2008


Looking through my blog, I found this entry as a draft from October 2008.

Today, at Bruin Cafe.
Running into someone from my past lead to a whole other plethora of emotions and memories to get brought up.
Things I don't like to think about became present, and I hated every minute of it.

I remember this interaction, the rejection became very real that day. Many situations that I had wished to erase from my memory came flooding back: family brokenness, the attempt to fit in completely and utterly and the recognition that I had failed. I had wanted to be at home in middle school, trying to find any way that I could belong.
Now, I am happy to say that I live for something bigger than myself; something I love completely and utterly, Someone that will never leave me or reject me. I'm already home.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Friday's Rain II

So it's another Friday when it rained.
I think I've mentioned before that I like the rain, it's good.
However, today's was especially special.
It was pouring down rain, pouring like I hadn't seen in a long time.
However, as the rain began to cease, the sun began to shine.
Shine as if it was just waiting to be there, not paying attention to the rain at all.
It was amazing.

My shoes and socks were wet, but I could still see the beauty in the rarity of this combination of rain and sun.

I could not help but see God in this (I see Him often in the simplest of places).
I could not help but wonder how it is that He takes such good care of us, despite the fact that we do not stop to notice Him each and every day.
He gave us the sun within the rain, and the beautiful clear sky that followed.

This song comes to mind:
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough
Your grace is enough for me...