- Delicate-Damien Rice
- The Closing of the Doors
- Gentle Savior- David Phelps
- Wonderful- Everclear
- Lucky Star- Debbie Reynolds
- Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol
- First Cut Is the Deepest- Sheryl Crowe
- Twist of Fate- U2
- My Desire- Kirk Franklin
- "God Who Answers Prayer", Psalm 65
- Who Am I?- Point of Grace
- When You Believe- Prince of Egypt
- When Love Takes You In- Steven Curtis Chapman
- Moment Made for Worshipping- Steven Curtis Chapman
- Unify Us, Purify Us
- You Said
- Blessed Be Your Name
- None, But Jesus
- Let Go- Grey Holiday
- I Will Follow You
- Temprano yo te buscare
- Cry In My Heart- Starfield
- Everlasting- Hillsong
- You Dance Over Me
- The More I Seek You
- Just Want You Around- Lauryn Hill
- Broken- Lifehouse
- Learning to Breathe- Switchfoot
- You- Switchfoot
- This is Home- Switchfoot
- Wait for Me- Rebecca St. James
- Coming Home- John Legend
- Hold You in My Arms- Ray LaMontagne
Showing posts with label 2008. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 2008. Show all posts
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Songs of 2008
So these are all songs that resonated in my mind or my heart during the year 2008. I tend to write down song lyrics that speak to me, and these are the ones that I found written from January thru December of 2008.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Letters Hold Significant Moments
I was going through a yellow UCLA folder that has a lot of papers in it. For some reason, tonight I was looking through it, and I found a letter that I wrote for a friend at the end of last year. I never mailed it, and now in reading it, I find that my words were significant.
This is how it reads:
So yes, this is what I wrote about 3 months ago. Some of the words I can't actually believe made it on paper; but I'm still glad they did. It does my soul good to know where I have been and where I currently stand with Jesus.
This is how it reads:
December 27, 2008
Hi friend.
I am realizing just how much I love pen and paper- the written word. I have found myself looking more and more toward books, quotes and journaling to help me sort out life and emotions. I like writing, more than I do typing; although it is less efficient.
I just finished watching Ever After, a movie with Drew Barrymore, it is a film I have watched so many times that I know all the lines. Sometimes it's nice to sit with something that's familiar, there's nothing new to expect, you can just sit back. I'd like to hold onto familiarity before 2009 comes around the corner and life reminds me that is waiting in the wings.
This quarter has been difficult, a lot has happened; my life is very different. Sadly, it wasn't the lottery. You've heard of some of this quarter's events. The quarter began by stepping into InterVarsity's leadership, a new living situation and the need to understand my mission at UCLA. As the quarter went on, I learned of Bubba's death and my stepdad being in the hospital. It ultimately ended by my stepfather passing away and me dealing with a broken family and a confused heart.
Even though I know that Jesus has wept with me and that he is holding, I find it difficult to feel close to him. I feel like I have already grieved, but something is also holding me back. I'm usually the girl that is constantly crying, and despite everything that has happened, I haven't cried in weeks. The thing is, I don't know what to do, I pray and try to bear my heart to Jesus, but tears and that sense of release do not come. Talking about it doesn't seem to help, I can talk about it with no problem. I just pray that healing regarding this comes sooner rather than later.
December 28, 2009
I had brunch with my dear friend, Alia (who used to own the dance studio that closed in August). I had brunch with her and her new significant man in her life. His name is Darrin and he has two little girls, Sophia and Sadie. They're really cute.
I realized that I hadn't been around children that age since FUI. Sophia is 7, and Sadie is 3. Things have changed since FUI, I was actually really great with them, I mean really great. I was at ease and held Sadie's hand as we walked into the restaurant for brunch. I do not think I was that at ease with my kids at MLK Square Apartments. It was nice to be invited to their hotel room where they were staying this weekend as well as to High School Musical 3 On Ice. :)
Hi friend.
I am realizing just how much I love pen and paper- the written word. I have found myself looking more and more toward books, quotes and journaling to help me sort out life and emotions. I like writing, more than I do typing; although it is less efficient.
I just finished watching Ever After, a movie with Drew Barrymore, it is a film I have watched so many times that I know all the lines. Sometimes it's nice to sit with something that's familiar, there's nothing new to expect, you can just sit back. I'd like to hold onto familiarity before 2009 comes around the corner and life reminds me that is waiting in the wings.
This quarter has been difficult, a lot has happened; my life is very different. Sadly, it wasn't the lottery. You've heard of some of this quarter's events. The quarter began by stepping into InterVarsity's leadership, a new living situation and the need to understand my mission at UCLA. As the quarter went on, I learned of Bubba's death and my stepdad being in the hospital. It ultimately ended by my stepfather passing away and me dealing with a broken family and a confused heart.
Even though I know that Jesus has wept with me and that he is holding, I find it difficult to feel close to him. I feel like I have already grieved, but something is also holding me back. I'm usually the girl that is constantly crying, and despite everything that has happened, I haven't cried in weeks. The thing is, I don't know what to do, I pray and try to bear my heart to Jesus, but tears and that sense of release do not come. Talking about it doesn't seem to help, I can talk about it with no problem. I just pray that healing regarding this comes sooner rather than later.
December 28, 2009
I had brunch with my dear friend, Alia (who used to own the dance studio that closed in August). I had brunch with her and her new significant man in her life. His name is Darrin and he has two little girls, Sophia and Sadie. They're really cute.
I realized that I hadn't been around children that age since FUI. Sophia is 7, and Sadie is 3. Things have changed since FUI, I was actually really great with them, I mean really great. I was at ease and held Sadie's hand as we walked into the restaurant for brunch. I do not think I was that at ease with my kids at MLK Square Apartments. It was nice to be invited to their hotel room where they were staying this weekend as well as to High School Musical 3 On Ice. :)
So yes, this is what I wrote about 3 months ago. Some of the words I can't actually believe made it on paper; but I'm still glad they did. It does my soul good to know where I have been and where I currently stand with Jesus.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Remember
Looking through my blog, I found this entry as a draft from October 2008.
Today, at Bruin Cafe.
Running into someone from my past lead to a whole other plethora of emotions and memories to get brought up.
Things I don't like to think about became present, and I hated every minute of it.
I remember this interaction, the rejection became very real that day. Many situations that I had wished to erase from my memory came flooding back: family brokenness, the attempt to fit in completely and utterly and the recognition that I had failed. I had wanted to be at home in middle school, trying to find any way that I could belong.
Now, I am happy to say that I live for something bigger than myself; something I love completely and utterly, Someone that will never leave me or reject me. I'm already home.
Today, at Bruin Cafe.
Running into someone from my past lead to a whole other plethora of emotions and memories to get brought up.
Things I don't like to think about became present, and I hated every minute of it.
I remember this interaction, the rejection became very real that day. Many situations that I had wished to erase from my memory came flooding back: family brokenness, the attempt to fit in completely and utterly and the recognition that I had failed. I had wanted to be at home in middle school, trying to find any way that I could belong.
Now, I am happy to say that I live for something bigger than myself; something I love completely and utterly, Someone that will never leave me or reject me. I'm already home.
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