i wonder what would have happened if we'd stayed together.
i wonder who you're with now
and if they love you as much as i do.
i worry about you,
whether you're being taken care of,
whether you're being loved the way you deserve.
i worry 'cause i believe
that no one can love you the way i do
the way i want to
and then i remember that it's not up to me,
you made that choice
i trust whatever God is trying to do in you
while i wait until you're reappearing
or whether i'll have to wonder
the flip side is that i feel i shouldn't.
(okay, maybe you really don't)
but after all this pain and genuine
absence from you
i feel like i shouldn't have these thoughts
may the Lord redeem you the way he's already
so that you know you deserve that kind of love
and not just from me.